Letting go…moving on

Have you ever invested far more than you ever thought you could, or would, or should, Dear Reader, in something that didn’t turn out like you’d hoped? That’s kinda what I’ve been thinking lately. Maybe it’s time to let go and move on.

Ever since our first visit to our new living community, I knew exactly how I wanted it to be. I could just see my cute new desk and new computer by the sunny study windows.

There would finally be time for the final steps prior to publication for my children’s fiction manuscript and seriously working on my platform. After all, three agents had told me they would love to read my manuscript and to send the whole thing, not just the first ten pages or first chapter.

And I did.

Truly, Dear Reader, I thought I’d followed all the right steps. I love my main character as though he is my child. (Does anyone else feel that way about yours?) I’d prayed over him, for the story he had to tell. I’d spent five years, off and on, and enough money for a really good vacation doing what I thought needed to be done. 

Guess what, Dear Reader, my new (life) chapter writing fantasy isn’t playing out at all like what I’d dreamed.  

I’ll be honest, some days it’s felt worse that physical therapy the week after a knee replacement to try and let go. And depression has reared its very ugly head more than once. 

But somehow, whether from habit or desperation, I’ve drug myself to my chair by the window nearly every morning…and the Lord has met me there. (I like to think He’s always waiting for me to meet Him.)

So, I’ve prayed a lot, and Tom and I have talked a little. I thought a lot about the visit in December I had with Cheri at EA Publishing. 

Did I hear God wrong? I don’t know. Maybe. Here’s what I do know. Even if I did, He can still get it right. How cool is that!

We’re all on the road to somewhere, aren’t we, Dear Reader? Whether you’re almost to your destination or pushing “Reroute” on Maps, like me, it’s nice to have company along the way. Thanks for letting me tag along with you!